There’s a lot of hurt and heartache and scary stuff going on right now, all over the world. Some of it hitting distant places, reaching our eyes and ears only by way of media. Some of it hitting right in our own back yards, maybe even right in our own homes.
Our heart breaks and just when we begin to pick up the pieces, some other hard, scary, messy thing hits and shakes our world and shatters us all over again. We are living broken in a broken world.
Sometimes, I find myself standing at the bottom of a mountain, one that either needs to be climbed or moved.
But as I look up the height of the mountain, to the barely visible snow-capped peaks, as I take in its massive heaviness, it seems impossible. I can’t climb it, I can’t move it.
My faith just seems so small for me to step out in faith. Could I really live the impossible? Can I actually do all things through Christ? My faith seems too small for that. My fear seems too big.
Like the father of the boy who was possessed by an evil spirit, I cry out, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24) Like the disciples, I pray, “Increase my faith!” (Luke 17:5)
Maybe you’re crying and praying as well. Maybe you feel like you don’t have enough faith, and that mountain seems unconquerably big.
Maybe you’ve read the quote: Let your faith be bigger than your fear.
I would like some big faith. Some big faith that snuffs out that fear. Some big faith that causes me to live big and do big things for God.
I read about those people of faith, even interact with some in my own everyday life. The ones who are crossing oceans and taking pay cuts and opening their homes to kids who need care and giving not just money, but also time and energy, and standing up for truth and even facing persecution and death, all in faith-filled obedience to God.
Where did they get it? This fear-crushing, radically obedient faith?
We are called to be women of faith. We are called to live by faith.
In the last post, we talked about faith, and looked at some verses from Hebrews 11 and discovered 4 characteristics of a woman of faith. In this post, we’re going to continue talking about faith from Hebrews 11.
Most of Hebrews 11 talks about the heroes of faith, and describes the actions they took by faith. Noah building the ark. Abraham leaving his homeland and having a son even though he was old and his wife was barren. Moses leading the Israelites out of slavery in Egypt. The Israelites passing through the Red Sea on day land. Rahab hiding the spies. The walls of Jericho falling after the Israelites marched around them for seven days. And many more are mentioned for their faith in God: Joseph, Gideon, Samson, David, the prophets.
My middle name is Faith. Jessica Faith Hagen. That’s me.
And you know, I think my middle name is my favorite part of my name. I’ve answered the ice-breaker question, If you were to change your name, what would you change it to? with different first names over the years. When I get married, I’ll be all for changing my last name. But I always say my middle I’d never change.
Because a woman of faith is who I want to be. I want that to be my true name; my identity. I want to be known not for accomplishments or successes, but for my faith in Jesus lived out in love and joy.